Serenity...

I always find it amazing just how fast things can change in life. I'll be honest I've never quite figured out where I am on this big blue ball in space. Always been a little lost or a little behind the pack so-to-speak.

I was just sitting here thinking about thing as the smell of roast dinner fills my grandparents lounge how everything in your life in a split second can change...sometimes for the worse.

In truth, not having a great time of it at the moment. Funnily enough the only thing that's really right about now is my music. Work and life in general are not too great. Sometimes I sit here thinking that I should just press the reset button and start it all again. Completely change every aspect of my life and live from that moment on but would all the hassle and heartache be worth it? Suppose that's the question. either way I suppose we just plod along through life and play the cards we're dealt. That's why I linked this blog back to serenity:

"Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage the change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference..."

That's the ironic thing, I KNOW what I can change...it's just doing it that's the hardest part. Especially when it comes to finances. Whether it be work, play or love everything eventually brings you back to money. You end up tied in a corner that you're so desperate to get out of but can't...it's a horrible feeling.

My plan was to use this weekend to 'sort my life out' but all I've managed to do is cut the grass, tidy the flat and progress my music! Not what I'd call sorting my life out...mind you, if I had the choice I'd give it all up and live on my music. I'd love that! That'd be my dream to just travel around the country/world playing music every night. If heaven is a place on earth, that place for me is on stage.

Suppose these things have a way of working themselves out in the end. I'll be honest I don't really know why I'm blogging about this, guess it's just therapeutic to put pen to paper, finger to keyboard and let my feelings flow out onto the screen.

Do me a favour though. In fact no, do yourselves a favour and remember that if you find someone who makes you forget it all. Forget all your worries and puts a smile on your face then hang on to them. Because that person is worth their weight in gold. That smile they put on your face is worth more than any words or any amount of money...believe me I know.

I'll close with another saying, one I've seemed to pen quite a few times this year:

"You only regret the things you didn't do..."


Maybe we all should live by this a little more and do something about our lives rather than living in limbo. Happiness is a word lost in society now. We've lost sight of it's true meaning with possessions and things but when it all comes down to it and you sit there at night surround by all the things you ever wanted you'll know it wasn't worth it.

Live true, be happy.

Till the next time Moysers, good night